Surrendering to gain Freedom?

Surrender looks nothing like I suspected. Offering my life as a sacrifice to Christ has had little to do with sacrifice and more to do with freedom than I would ever have imagined or suspected.

As I have fought to define myself in Christ, as His child, I have found it a relief to lay down my old life's practices; worry, doubt, anxiety, striving and fear. Oh don't get me wrong I pick those up occasionally, the difference this go around is I run right to Him with them.

I have found Him readily available even joyful to take my burdens. Life turns in it's normal fashion between pride and pain. I have found such freedom in handing them to Him.

It feels like I'm moving, it feels like I'm living, it feels like I'm breathing for the very first time. I have stated in former blogs that I have seen with my own eyes and heard with my own ears the heart of God. I am in love with the purest of lovers and I find great comfort and security in Him.

It is during the times in which I pick up my old practices and during the times when I experience the pains of this world that I find myself deeper into the heart of God and that is a blessing.

The last few days I have been tearfully thankful that God has shown Himself gently persistent, unfailing, confident and everything I need Him to be today.

Cat got your tongue?

I have an intimate relationship with a God that seemed abstract for the first 21 years of our relationship. He is without fail, the most stable person I have ever given my heart to. Our new relationship has been birthed in authenticity which has created a level of honesty in me (with him) that God has honored. It may not be pretty but it is real.

In the transforming of my mind I am being renewed. I have spent most of my life expressing myself from a foundation of courage, confidence and integrity only to find through the eyes of a new “real” that I was living in contempt and entitlement. The further I step away from the old behaviors the more clear they are. The contempt of others and idea that the world owed me something sent me further and further away from what I truly desired: courage, confidence and integrity.

I am in the middle of a 60/60 retraining of my daily habits that is to include my Heavenly Father in my head, heart and world every 60 minutes for 60 days. My beeper (watch) beeps for 10 seconds every hour. It beeps while I do yard work, at the grocery store, at work, at parties, where ever I am. “What a great tool” I thought. This relationship I cherish will reside on the tip of my tongue all day as other’s ask “what’s the beeping for?” I now have an excuse to talk about what it has been like to live in the tender heart of God.

Then on Saturday at a party I was quickly redirecting conversation when the watch was given attention and I stood on my own fears of rejection instead of the opportunity I hoped for.

My mind has argued the following questions:
Is there an appropriate time and/or place to share with others about this new love of mine?
Is the attention and approval of others more important to me than the He is; the lover of my heart?

The wonderful part…I asked God to forgive my lack of courage, to provide more safe moments in which I could share exactly what the beep means. He responded with 2 questions: “Do you trust me? Do you love me? I am your King and you have nothing to fear.”

How can I possibly keep this love quiet?

Freedom, Joy and Peace

Have you ever truly allowed yourself to love and be loved?

Have you ever found yourself at a place in a relationship where you truly felt accepted? A relationship in which you were painfully honest about your struggles, wounds, past, failures and insecurities?

In your efforts to be authentic you may have had to prepare yourself to be rejected only to find out the lies that rattled around in your head weren't that ugly after you shared them. The deepest darkest part of your painful heart wasn't bottomless after all. You allowed someone else to see inside your soul and they confirmed the pain but didn't agree with the lies you told yourself as a result.

I found myself in this predicament with God. I have grown to trust and love Him. He has become my Heavenly Father; a term I do not use lightly. God has asked to see my inner most pains. He has asked me to allow Him to redefine the lies I have told myself and the way I view myself. This was done through my willingness to expose my shame, past, failures and pains to Him. This is a journey that is measured in years and the trust that God can handle the tough questions and accusations of His wounded child.

Did I invite Him into anything He didn't already know, of course not, but we walked through my darkest places together and He is proved to me all the things I have heard about Him were true. God is pure love; a love that is deeper, higher and wider than my mind can contain. I am more secure and confident in the fact that God loves me unconditionally than I have ever been. I am in a relationship in which I don't question the other's love or acceptance of me and to say the least I FEEL FREE! I have shown God all of me.

I am finding the most amazing self compassion and forgiveness I have ever felt. God has given me His joy and peace. You can not imagine how Big God has shown up; never again will I doubt His love for me and my passion for Him.

The things I have hoped for. The claims I have read in books, heard speaker and preachers claim are now my truth. The truth about the heart of my God as become my truth. I have lived in the tender heart of God. I found Jesus and the bottom of my pain and I am more in love than I could have ever imagined.

I realize details are missing but the details are not the important part. The important part is I have freedom, joy and peace - given to me by the creator of my heart. The most amazing part of it all is God has searched my heart, He has found a genuine heart for Him, He knows I love Him and He feels blessed.

The fact that I can bless God is humbling ~ oh how He loves us.

Job 42

"I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all firsthand—from my own eyes and ears!" I took this verse from The Message and though I did not suffer the same way Job did I found myself expressing my pain in the same way Job did.

The beauty of it, the way my tender hearted God works is I agreed to invite Him into the struggles of this life and He blessed me by revealing Himself to me. He and I went deep, got real, talked about the ugly stuff and I have seen God bigger than ever; in the deepest parts of my heart He has been. This journey of healing was given words through the book "The Shack" and I am so very thankful to my best friend - neither of us knew what God was doing when you slipped that book in my bag. I love you for that.

There is no part of my heart, head and life that God is not allowed to have. God has crawled inside this world to be with us and when He lives in us we can live together through any and everything.

Not "me trying harder" but N E W

I am basking in this God that has been chasing after my heart this week. Last night I did some yard work and various (normal) weekend chores and it just felt good to be me. To emotionally recognize and embrace who I am (in Christ), that I am NEW (not just the old Amy trying harder).

I don’t know what it looks like. I don’t know if it’s a life long struggle or eventually achieved through His given desires but I long to completely surrender to God. To be this new creationg. I want Him to have all of me and I want it to have happened yesterday.


The words of the David Crowder song really touched my heart. I heard the tremendous love this Creator has for us and I am baffled by it. I love when connections are made…and my heart TRUSTS them. The song You're Everything says:
If I could see you want me
Could I believe?
If I could just feel your touch
Could I be free?
Why do you shine so? So the blind can see?
Can the deaf hear the voice of love?
Are you the one?

Blah, blah, blah….

You’re everything
I can just feel your touch
and I can't breathe
And how you shine so
the blind can see
and how you call out
you beckon me
the deaf hear the voice of love
you bid me come
and the cripple run

So raise me up
from this grave
you touch my tongue
and then I'll say:
Heal my limbs
and joyfully I'll run to you

I have grown to love David Crowder's music cause I often read his lyrics and relate to his questions, then I long for the answers he found or they validate my experience as well. I so often find myself blind and deaf to God but His glory shines bright enough for me to see it, His love is LOUD enough for my deaf ears to hear and His call is so strong how can I but RUN into his arms. All of these actions above and beyond the desires and ability of my flesh. It just validates that I am HIS creation for all He is draws me near to him.

Mercy, mercy, mercyme

I had the most amazing experience praying last Tuesday night. As I spoke to God, I imagined Him on His throne and I had my own little moment of worshiping (and recognizing) God for ALL He is. I quickly realized the only way I am able to approach the throne of this perfect, loving creator of the Heaven’s and earth is through the sacrifice of His son, Jesus. I saw Jesus standing next to the throne as He did to welcome Stephan into Heaven and I felt the profound love of the Son of God. He was standing while I was worshipping His Father. I was emotionally overwhelmed by the fact that Jesus loves that I love His father. His sacrifice brought me to God; in Him I am enough. My heart absorbed the reality of Jesus living as a man sacrificing all he knew, with the goal of bringing US back to God. Jesus walked this earth knowing that He was not here for Himself. He was not here to enjoy a life on earth. Jesus was here to introduce God’s heart to us in the flesh and to bring us back to Him.

LOL – I don’t even remember what I said to God or Jesus at that moment, the power of His presence was healing as if God relieved me of my own words. I do remember the bottom dropping out (rain), running to let the dogs in and returning to my room to find Carlie laying in my tears on the carpet as if she wanted some of God too.

I heard Bart (we are on a first name bases) of Mercy Me discuss the writing of this song, Unaware. He described it as a realization of God and the love they shared for one another, likening it to the obsessive feeling of a new love; unaware of all that surrounds us. It reminded me of words I heard in my small group last night. I immediately put my own words to this thought so I don’t remember exactly how it was said. What I remember was “feeling God’s peace in the storms of this life, not as if we float above them but because we are so deeply grounded in relationship with Christ.” Specially this line “unaware of my fears, unaware of my shame…..unaware of everything knowing You’re aware of me.”
I want a man that loves God with this much passion!

Unaware by Mercy Me:

Forgive me if I stare
But I am taken back
That You would let me here
Regardless of my past
Oh my hands are shaking now
But I catch my breathe somehow
Oh, I am free at last

Tell me how I got here
I couldn't make it on my own
Just tell me I can stay
Cause it feels so much like home
And I lose all track of time
When I look into Your eyes
Your love is all I know

Chorus:
Unaware of my fears
Unaware of my shame
Nothing else matters here
But glorifying Your name
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me
I'm aware I'm in a place I couldn't be
If You weren't there to call my name and rescue me

I'm unaware that I still breathe
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me

Sunday's message HIT ME

Lies are powerful. I have seen it in my own life and those [willing to share] around me.

Sunday overwhelmed my emotions. God overwhelmed my emotions. I am not sure I stopped crying from the first song until it was over. At one point God's presence was so tremendous I struggled to maintain the little composure I had. I am still absorbing Sunday's message. I am basking in the way the Holy Spirit works.

I am so thankful to have a God that can continue healing me and loving me. Sunday was another way of God revealing His purpose for me on this earth, revealing His love to my heart and teaching me the path to rest for my soul. I am so amazed at how much He loves me, how much He wants to give me and how the lies I have believed keep me from Him; lies that I still struggle with. The very idea that "I am worth being healed" is a message from God because that certainly would not come from the my mental tapes.


I have asked God to show me what rest looks like. I have asked Him to give it to me, to calm my head, my body and my stomach. I have experienced times of rest with Him but never while physically being still. There is a fear in solitude that I probably could explain if I allowed myself to be still and think about it, lol. Sunday He answered my "show me what rest looks like" by telling me that I was enough for Him. I didn't need to be more for Him and I certainly was not less than He needed. Rest is in allowing myself to let Him love me and in turn to love myself the same way; with compassion. I am relearning that very thing on deeper and deeper levels as my healing continues.

I am excited for the opportunity to become who I am in HIM. I am beginning to think I might like her.

Captivating to Christ

About 3 years ago I heard a speaker offer his opinion of God's love for us. He mentioned that God pursues us everyday, interrupting our thoughts, in hopes of gaining our attention. He said I am God's desire, I am the object of God's affection and I can bring delight to the universe creator. I was drawn in by this possiblity. My spiritual pursuit was to prove that man right; my soul needed to be chased and filled by God, my heart needed to be healed by God and my head desire His peace.

In short this journey has been answered in many ways; through scripture, additional readings and through prayer. God has assured me numerous times that I am his. God tells me I am never alone that he is always with me and God begs for every ounce of my heart, mind and body.

I am now (again) validated. My desire to know and hope in my Heavenly Father is satisfied on a deeper level. Read "Captivated" by John and Stasi Eldridge and tell me your reaction. I am in awe that the King of Kings is so passionately interested in my heart that he pursues me with jealousy. He is in love with me. I melt His heart with my smile.

Let me breathe this in. I have lived this. I have felt this. Today I have the words to explain it.

Mourning for Her

I drag my heart to the feet of the universe maker hoping he'll spare me some of the pain it feels as I watch my friend grieve the loss of her mother. I know it is only Him that can carry her through this pain and loss. I know nothing can calm or ease the sorrow that has swallowed her but I still search for the 'right' words to say and I analyze those I've already vocalized. I know only time will allow her to trudge through the emotions that appear parallizing but I still hope to wake up finding weeks have passed. The exhaustion on her face, the slumping of her stature and her melted smile display her dispair......and my heart breaks.

God promises to hold and love us as we struggle to survive the pains of this world. The awful truth I am trying to swallow is nothing will make her grief go away. I find myself reaching out for His comforting truth hoping he will sustain her. "Draw nigh to God and He will draw nigh to you [James 4:8].

I work to remind myself that the pain I feel watching this process is minute in comparison to God's. My tears will be replaced with perfect and complete love as I fumble towards His thrown, trusting His goodness and His heart.

Hope and Wait

I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And the God of the Heavens is the one who fashioned me together. He knows my name and He knows every single thing there is to know about me. He's made me a promise: for those that trust in him he will literally hold is in HIS hand and carry me all the days of my life.

I dont see what God is doing.
I dont understand what the plan is
but I tell you one thing
I am not going to give up on God.
I'm gonna stand right here
in the middle of this moment
and I'm gonna trust
that God is sitting on a throne,
that he has a purpose for my life
and a plan for my life
and I believe Im gonna
see the goddness of God
in the land of the livng
and I'm not going to stop believing
in that no matter what.

God shows me and tells me "even when you let go of me I'm not gonna let go of you, ever."

Rest for my soul

I struggle with the idea that God accepts me for who and where I am at this moment. My fear of disappointing Him has been hushed with a peace only He could provide. He offers me rest. I find myself comfortable with the silence as He draws me near.

I am able to turn my head off and listen to Him; neither of us say much and the silence is comforting. How can I stay in this moment for eternity?

I have taken the first steps today- I have written down my desires and wants. I am comfortable with me acknowledging them (without offering them); letting Him listen.

Matthew 6:34

A continuatual conversation of my inability to see, accept and trust God as a protector verified a list of fears and desires that I don’t entrust or express to God; ironically He knows them all. A reality that leaves me feeling uncomfortable exposed.

Isn’t the expression of one’s desires presented with the hope and trust that God will embrace and value those desires; even fulfill them? What are the first steps to trust that? All I hear are the religious tapes scrolling “Thy will be done”… That’s a triggering statement.

He wants so desperately for me to trust in Him and it breaks my heart that I can not or will not. The formula I search for does not exist.

How do I release the bondage of worrying about tonight, tomorrow and the days to follow?

My Father

I am haled by how humble
Yet overwhelmed by Your majesty !

The balance of authenticity

The voice of God is never condemning (Rom. 8:1), never harsh or accusing. His conviction brings a desire for repentance; Satan’s accusation kills our hearts (2 Cor. 7:10).
This is a reminder that God’s way of pulling me toward Him is never harsh or shame filled. I don’t get this “God’s love” thing. My biggest struggle is allowing God to define Himself to me. I put Him on the same level of those that have/have not loved me in the past.
I don’t tolerate myself very well not sure how or why He continues. The list of ways I must disappoint Him is tremendous and the fact that I willfully ignore His desires for me in front of others feels humiliating.
The thing I hoped to live above has become my reality; disappointing others, God and myself. My own thought process and attempt to accept God’s love works against me as I use it to justify that my unmet desires are undeserving. I beg God to show me His voice is not condemning or harsh – because mine is. He shows and tells me He loves me and He will never leave yet I try to prove Him wrong. I must wear Him out, lol!
A repentant heart (be careful what you pray for) has left my heart broken and fearful. My mental tapes tell me asking forgiveness is meaningless if the behavior doesn’t change, I am sure God is not as intolerant.
Living openly and authentically before others includes the ‘not perfect’ sides of Amy that I wish no one, not even God, had to see. I have a deep desire to make who He is a real part of who I am. I don’t so much fear your judgment of God because of my actions; I know He is bigger than my faults. I am however disappointed that I did not always behave as one that loves God with all her heart, mind and body.

WHO HE IS

The following was sent to me from a dear Christian friend. In her own journey her heart opens to a perfect Heavenly Father through the words of a daily message she receives. The below was a small part of the daily message she sent me a couple weeks ago it still ministers to me. God still uses it to remind me of the Father He is and the desire He has to prove His gentleness to me.
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Any “word” or suggestion that brings discouragement, condemnation, accusation—that is not from God. Neither is confusion, nor any counsel that would lead you to disobey what you do know. Reject it all, and carry on in your journey. Yes, of course, God needs to convict us of sin, warn us of wrong movements in the soul

—but the voice of God is never condemning (Rom. 8:1), never harsh or accusing.

His conviction brings a desire for repentance; Satan’s accusation kills our hearts (2 Cor. 7:10).
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What's the silver lining?

I review the significance of my journey; searching for purpose, validation, understanding and acceptance. Hope stands with great intimidation before me and I clutch it mightily only to let go of it during times terror. Healing comes after the waves of my ferocious reality. God leaves the healing of my soul complete as He searches the open areas of my heart in effort to wash clean the stains I have based my identity on.
I find consistently that only one thing remains true. One thing stays unwavering. There is one thing doesn't deplete, threaten or confuse me; My Heavenly Father. The greatest and yet the simplest thing I have learned to stand on is that God loves me. My Heavenly Father has allowed our relationship to be redefined. He and I are creating from scratch a new foundation; one that is withholding the most terrorizing of my storms. His love captivates all of me. He has paid the price for my future and my PAST.
The darkest clouds of this journey are lined in the silver blaze of Christ, not whom I meet after walking through the storm but who stands in the midst of it with me as my anchor. Above all hope, desire and restitution my relationship with God, real and authentic, is worth a thousand days of darkness. He is ever faithful, ever true.

He tells me I deserve His love - a love relationship He died for.

the ugly truth

Today I am only used trash. It is as if it was what I was put on this world to be. This is the person I can connect to - I know her well. I am her. I am obsessed with the stories of others. I hope to connect with a group moving forward, I hope to take the piercing power away from the word - I except to gain the knowledge of how to stop it the next time as I trust there will be a next time.

I looked forward to coming to work today so I could read research and review those in my similar situation. I want someone to stop this train and yet I avoid the work responsibilities that lay before me.

I am preparing myself for the next time. I have to make myself stronger and more resilient; strong enough to handle the pain of being at the will of another or strong enough to fight for life to remain within my being?

Am I sending myself into a panic? I search for answers to too many questions, trying to avoid the questions. I want the story, the details, the time line, the colors and the names. I trust myself to handle the answers. “Give me all you can I’ll let you know (never) when I can not tolerate anymore.”

I want to know this hasn’t broken me; I need to know this is (was) not my purpose; I want desperately to believe I will have a loving, compassionate, gentle relationship with intimacy. God show me how to start with you…and yet I want to move through You quickly to “him.”

Slow me down Father for I desire to find a loving, compassionate, gentle, relationship of complete intimacy in YOU first!

To my audience of one

I come on my knees
To lay down before you
Bringing all that I am
Longing only to know you
Seeking your face
And not only your hand
I find you embracing me
Just as I am

To my audience of oneYou are Father, and you are Son As your spirit flows free, Let it find within me A heart that beats to praise you. And now just to know you more Has become my great reward To see your kingdom come And your will be done I only desire to be yours, Lord.

So what could I bring
To honor your majesty
What song could I sing
That would move the heart of royalty
And all that I have
Is the life that you’ve given me
So Lord let me live for you
My song with humility
And Lord as the love song
Of my life is played
I have one desire
To bring glory to your name

~Big Daddy Weave

Running to God

The direction of my spiritual ambivalence is being resolved. God in his faithful way shows me again my healing is complete through Him. My stuff keeps bubbling up and He and I deal with it; I am not as gentle with myself as He is but I trust that will come as healing continues.

No ways, I had an epiphany. Well, maybe not so much an epiphany as a genuine moment of acceptance. A new level of accepting that I can’t do this "above all else guard your heart, for it is the well spring of life" ( Proverbs 4:23) without God. The epiphany is (was) though I want to be the one in charge of my heart, I don’t really do a good job of protecting it but maybe He would.

We read a verse during the week of our study and it has NOT left my thoughts: "God has set eternity in the human heart" (Ecclesiastes 3:11). Not only do I search for eternity in things outside of God but I attempt to make the things close to my heart eternal. Wow, what a concept. The desires I have that do not include God don’t make me this horrible, unworthy daughter because that is the inclination of my heart. God in His loving wanting of me wants to not only protect my heart’s desires for the eternal but He also asked me to consider adding Him to list of desires!

How is it that He asks me to love him?

The Bible tells me (paraphrased) that my heart, the wellspring of life, was fearfully and wonderfully and carefully and thoughtfully designed to love the greatest and grandest of beings. My heart was designed to love God. I am stepping into a new level of my trust in God. Could He possible care that much – I am beginning to think so and it is humbling.

To guard this heart we must direct this wellspring to that which it is designed to love. It is not ultimately designed for anything LESS than The Eternal. To direct this pulsating passion to little things is not guarding our hearts but frustrating our hearts. "More!"our hearts rightfully beat. I was designed for The Eternal! Don’t ruin me with little things. Guard me. Protect me. Care for me. Guard me, protect me and care for me by setting me free and letting me RUN TO THE ONLY GOD grand enough and great enough to bring me ultimate satisfaction.
"Run to God"
"Run to God" That statement brings tears to my eyes…run to God, running to God.
I am running to God.

My day's struggle

Do I believe that God is a loving Father who is committed to my deepest well-being, that He has the right to use everything that is in me for whatever purposes He deems best and that surrendering my will and my life entirely to Him will bring me the deepest joy and fulfillment I can know this side of heaven?

I want to believe this but I cant say I trust it and live it - at least not today.

He pursues us

What is it in my being that hides the fight and desire to be loved and accepted by God? I watch the Holy Spirit pursue me, pursue those I lead and pursue those I follow. His faithful chase is not hindered by my hatred, ambivalence, lack of faith or refusal to trust Him.

"Prayer of any kind and about any subject delights God's heart. The Lord desires for us to want Him, adore Him, thank Him, need Him, and love Him." [Dan Allendar] This sounds alot like what I want from Him. I hope to be desireable to Him.

That is an amazing thought, idea and fact. This is a fact in my life as I have watched God reward my attention, faithfulness and pursuit of Him. I have felt the purity of His love and yet I still struggle trusting Him. I ask Him to continue to reveal, conform, instruct, guide, heal, bless, convict and comfort me.

I am learning that I can trust Him to enter my situations to accomplish what He desires. I don't know why or how but I do know God intensely loves me without provocation.

He humbles Himself

I am overwhelmed daily by the way my Heavenly Father loves me and proves Himself gentle. He never takes the likely route, He does not follow the pattern I think he'd choice, He does not act like my earthly father, He explodes through all my expectation of love.
In His desire for me to know He is safe He humbles Himself before me. I dont even know how to explain that. I find Him loving me towards him. He often places Himself at my feet longing for my attention and love. I stands before Him in tears as I watch my Creator reassure my heart and restore my soul. I am beginning to believe and recognize the healing power of His touch. How He does this Overwhelms my emotions and I do not understand it.
I am broken by His love. I am captivated by His voice. I am overwhelmed byt he life He breathes into me. I long to remain before Him every minute of my day. He knows my fears and assures me they are not from Him.
I hope, one day, to have the strength to serve Him with the same authentic humility; on my knees, before Him thanking Him for His attention and love.
A thankful child.

what do i bring ?

I have been a christian for 25 years. I remember listening to Sandi Patty sing in front of thousands of teenagers and feeling that I wanted the God she had.

I have since pushed and pulled God into my life. The prodigal son has little on me. I suspect my rebellious time could certainly scare the meek and wow the strong. The amazing thing - when i surrendered to God's love he gave celebration. I didn't realize how much He missed me. I turned back to a God that embraced me with open arms.

I have been the receiptant of His love and it is more than enough for all of me. I share this blog with the hope to share authentically about a Lord that has loved His child back to Him. He humbles me with His grace, He loves my heart and hold it in his hand and He has yet to give up on me.

I am amazed by such committment. The story gets better.
Amy

Words for these intense feelings

Can I possible have words to describe what I feel in the presence of Christ?

In Paul’s letter to the Ephesians he says “I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the HOPE to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His people, and HIS INCOMPARABLY GREAT POWER FOR US WHO BELIEVE. THAT POWER IS THE SAME AS THE MIGHTY STRENGTH HE EXERTED WHEN HE RAISED CHRIST FROM THE DEAD and seated Him at the right hand in the heavenly realms.” Get ready here comes the kicker…..

Paul continues in 3: 16-21 “And I pray that you, being rooted and established in love, may have power, together with all the Lord's people, to grasp how wide and long and high and deep is the love of Christ, and to know this love that surpasses knowledge—that you may be filled to the measure of all the fullness of God. Now to him who is able to do immeasurably more than all we ask or imagine, according to his power that is at work within us”.

I can tell you know how it feels. I feel that unparalleled power, the same power that GOD exerted to raise His son from the dead HEALS me too. I am experiencing how wide, long, high and deep is the love of Christ; I am filled beyond all measure. Eureka! It is not that I didn’t already know these things but my feelings have words - I have been validated! The love of my God was given to me and then confirmed in God’s word.


“It is like the breath of Jesus is right here in this room.”
Amy