Mercy, mercy, mercyme

I had the most amazing experience praying last Tuesday night. As I spoke to God, I imagined Him on His throne and I had my own little moment of worshiping (and recognizing) God for ALL He is. I quickly realized the only way I am able to approach the throne of this perfect, loving creator of the Heaven’s and earth is through the sacrifice of His son, Jesus. I saw Jesus standing next to the throne as He did to welcome Stephan into Heaven and I felt the profound love of the Son of God. He was standing while I was worshipping His Father. I was emotionally overwhelmed by the fact that Jesus loves that I love His father. His sacrifice brought me to God; in Him I am enough. My heart absorbed the reality of Jesus living as a man sacrificing all he knew, with the goal of bringing US back to God. Jesus walked this earth knowing that He was not here for Himself. He was not here to enjoy a life on earth. Jesus was here to introduce God’s heart to us in the flesh and to bring us back to Him.

LOL – I don’t even remember what I said to God or Jesus at that moment, the power of His presence was healing as if God relieved me of my own words. I do remember the bottom dropping out (rain), running to let the dogs in and returning to my room to find Carlie laying in my tears on the carpet as if she wanted some of God too.

I heard Bart (we are on a first name bases) of Mercy Me discuss the writing of this song, Unaware. He described it as a realization of God and the love they shared for one another, likening it to the obsessive feeling of a new love; unaware of all that surrounds us. It reminded me of words I heard in my small group last night. I immediately put my own words to this thought so I don’t remember exactly how it was said. What I remember was “feeling God’s peace in the storms of this life, not as if we float above them but because we are so deeply grounded in relationship with Christ.” Specially this line “unaware of my fears, unaware of my shame…..unaware of everything knowing You’re aware of me.”
I want a man that loves God with this much passion!

Unaware by Mercy Me:

Forgive me if I stare
But I am taken back
That You would let me here
Regardless of my past
Oh my hands are shaking now
But I catch my breathe somehow
Oh, I am free at last

Tell me how I got here
I couldn't make it on my own
Just tell me I can stay
Cause it feels so much like home
And I lose all track of time
When I look into Your eyes
Your love is all I know

Chorus:
Unaware of my fears
Unaware of my shame
Nothing else matters here
But glorifying Your name
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me
I'm aware I'm in a place I couldn't be
If You weren't there to call my name and rescue me

I'm unaware that I still breathe
Unaware of everything
Knowing You're aware of me