Thursday, May 8, 2008

Matthew 6:34

A continuatual conversation of my inability to see, accept and trust God as a protector verified a list of fears and desires that I don’t entrust or express to God; ironically He knows them all. A reality that leaves me feeling uncomfortable exposed.

Isn’t the expression of one’s desires presented with the hope and trust that God will embrace and value those desires; even fulfill them? What are the first steps to trust that? All I hear are the religious tapes scrolling “Thy will be done”… That’s a triggering statement.

He wants so desperately for me to trust in Him and it breaks my heart that I can not or will not. The formula I search for does not exist.

How do I release the bondage of worrying about tonight, tomorrow and the days to follow?

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