My Legacy

God may this be ever true of me...
"In whatever comes my way and in all that I’ve been through that I held on to You."

My Secret's Soundtrack

God my heart is so full its impossible to maintain composure. This week you have met desires in my heart that sink deep into the mended areas of my soul; desires that sink deep into our history.

I have worshipped You in the car, on beaches, on runs, in my closet and in my own backyard with her music leading the way. I have sat in your presence while (her) music played in the background. It's my "go to" tool when stillness alone doesn't provide the safety for my own heart to surface.

The experiences are vast! Each song tied to a vision - a conversation - a invitation to climb into your lap.

A comforting melody called for the "Holy Spirit to Come" when Jesus invited me to the floor of my pain.

I am reminded that just your name can move me near and when valley's come and shadow's stay; You Are My Hallelujah.

When my addiction is bigger than my willingness to surrender
"You come around and we All Fall Down
You come and break all the lies
You’re the only reason why

I find myself getting strong when I’m weak

You tear down all my walls

You love me just because

All you wanted was to see me free."

God, this music is the soundtrack is our shared secrets, its part of the healing you and I've walked through.

Wednesday you brought Rita Springer to Gateway. When I wanted to sit on the back row and watch my church enjoy her You ask me to sit on the front row (of this gift) and let You watch me fully enjoy with reckless abandonment. It was good!

The fact that you love me and the way you love.....blows my mind!

Your Majesty, it has my attention

Your Sovereignty, it has my devotion

and You, You Still Have My Heart.

The greatest gift, more than being able to spend the day with Rita, more than watching her lead beautifully with her gift was watching You thru her... its about YOU!

Thank you for....
calling me deeper into my passion
empowering my talents with your authority
confirming what we do well together
telling me I am equally beautiful in my gifts

Allow me to receive all You have for me in this and flush out what isn't from you.

Oh How You Love Me

Undeniable, Unconditional
You are to me
Undoubtedly, infinity
And oh so beautiful
Irreplaceable, unforgettable
Eternally, Unmistakable, all Merciful
And oh so beautiful
Oh how I love you
How wide, How deep, How great is your love for me
How high, how endless, and oh how beautiful

CRY-228

I spent Friday taking my unsettled state of emotions consistantly to their creator asking "what is it I need God?" While driving home last night a car cut me off...it's liscense plate "CRY-228". Permission given, permission taken....a good cry later I am settled.

What a gift to be loved by a Father that allows His great promises to sink down into the smallest of my details..."I am with you always."