I drag my heart to the feet of the universe maker hoping he'll spare me some of the pain it feels as I watch my friend grieve the loss of her mother. I know it is only Him that can carry her through this pain and loss. I know nothing can calm or ease the sorrow that has swallowed her but I still search for the 'right' words to say and I analyze those I've already vocalized. I know only time will allow her to trudge through the emotions that appear parallizing but I still hope to wake up finding weeks have passed. The exhaustion on her face, the slumping of her stature and her melted smile display her dispair......and my heart breaks.
God promises to hold and love us as we struggle to survive the pains of this world. The awful truth I am trying to swallow is nothing will make her grief go away. I find myself reaching out for His comforting truth hoping he will sustain her. "Draw nigh to God and He will draw nigh to you [James 4:8].
I work to remind myself that the pain I feel watching this process is minute in comparison to God's. My tears will be replaced with perfect and complete love as I fumble towards His thrown, trusting His goodness and His heart.
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