Wednesday, September 21, 2011

Permission to Lament

If we wish to invite a dying culture-that flirts with knowing life is neither easy, nor good to consider the gospel, then we must learn to sing songs that face life with both honesty and hope. We need to learn to lament. We will consider the language of lament and the place for lament-the community of God. We need to learn to get out of the way of those that cry out, stand as a vessel of God's truth, not as a God.


A lament is the battle cry against God that paradoxically voice a heart of desire and ironic faith in His goodness. We fear lament as a quick slide into doubt and despair, failing to see that doubt and despair are the darker soil that is necessary to grow confidence and joy.


When our doubt and despair are turned towards our neighbors, they mock us we miss the gift of the cry. Isn't it God who is behind the permissions and direction of our suffering?



Dan Allander says "Radical pain is required before we are prone to surrender to His goodness. The pain and the struggle are not to be glorified, but it seems to be provoked by God; therefore, it is part of the process of our transformation."

push and P U L L

I suppose there are always times in my (our) life when allowing yourself to be vulernable will lead to a painful situation. I have friends, family members, and lovers that come and go with the seasons of my life. As I look back these have been decision in my control for the most part; until recently. Few times in my life have I been the one standing at the door watching my love drive away; today that reality sets in.


Good close friends can't possibly stay close always. Things change, people get married, have children, move or find new jobs.


How do you know you matter to someone? How do you feel, connect and trust without wearing myself or them out? Trusting feels like I am giving myself away. Connecting feels like an opened door to unwarranted pain. Feeling traps my thoughts as undefinable.


What I have done is left first. Close down. Pull away. Put myself in the situation where I am in control. I get to decided when the friendship is redefined; it is on my terms.

*written years ago but REAL today