tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-76609617457231740542012-01-26T18:45:28.953-08:00God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.comBlogger351100tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-52117307501534145632012-01-26T17:28:00.000-08:002012-01-26T18:45:28.964-08:00

God may this be ever true of me... "In whatever comes my way and in all that I’ve been through that I held on to You."

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-27770129076114366212012-01-21T12:51:00.000-08:002012-01-22T06:14:12.486-08:00

God my heart is so full its impossible to maintain composure. This week you have met desires in my heart that sink deep into the mended areas of my soul; desires that sink deep into our history.I have worshipped You in the car, on beaches, on runs, in my closet and in my own backyard with her music leading the way. I have sat in your presence while (her) music played in the background. It's my "

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-83121320707237122502012-01-14T06:25:00.000-08:002012-01-14T21:45:50.500-08:00

I spent Friday taking my unsettled state of emotions consistantly to their creator asking "what is it I need God?" While driving home last night a car cut me off...it's liscense plate "CRY-228". Permission given, permission taken....a good cry later I am settled.What a gift to be loved by a Father that allows His great promises to sink down into the smallest of my details..."I am with you always

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-50257616363934360152011-10-11T16:56:00.000-07:002012-01-14T20:21:37.639-08:00

I am an adulterous woman God. I have other Gods and I consciously choose them over You. I am aware of my betrayal and sometimes that reality manages to connect with my heart and I try to push you away. I let you know "this is a good time, appropriate time, for you to leave me now God." Yet....you haven't and today You remind me "I will never let you go, Amy."

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-24409071311563236632011-10-02T07:43:00.000-07:002012-01-14T09:31:59.810-08:00

God, You were so sweet to me yesterday and I'll confess I am slow to put my hope in your mercy as a resolve. God the days of September have been filled with moments of confusion, anxiety, and emotional discomfort; really these words dilute those emotions. As one that values my desire and ability to express myself I find myself (even in hindsight) unable to articulate this state of emotions.God

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-57122217299286749432011-09-21T16:34:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:34:46.922-07:00

If we wish to invite a dying culture-that flirts with knowing life is neither easy, nor good to consider the gospel, then we must learn to sing songs that face life with both honesty and hope. We need to learn to lament. We will consider the language of lament and the place for lament-the community of God. We need to learn to get out of the way of those that cry out, stand as a vessel of God's

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-18387787373586905852011-09-21T16:32:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:32:11.928-07:00

I suppose there are always times in my (our) life when allowing yourself to be vulernable will lead to a painful situation. I have friends, family members, and lovers that come and go with the seasons of my life. As I look back these have been decision in my control for the most part; until recently. Few times in my life have I been the one standing at the door watching my love drive away; today

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-36799792582475042022009-11-19T09:26:00.000-08:002009-12-07T14:41:57.803-08:00

"I say to you, Blessed is he who exposes Himself to an existence never brought under mastery, who does not transcend, but rather abandons himself to my ever-transcending grace. Blessed are not the enlightened whose every question has been answered and who are delighted with their own sublime insight, the mature and ripe ones whose one remaining action is to fall from the tree. Blessed, rather,

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-17615943468902066132009-11-02T15:36:00.001-08:002011-09-22T05:18:24.665-07:00

I learned a valuable lesson last week, one I practice daily in hopes of it becoming a permanent change in behavior and not just a remembered event. Maturity will grow into and display itself through obedience; obedience is not always practiced from a place of maturity. If I truly am His, abandoned, dead, transformed then all I have grown into must fall under His authority. My next breath

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-36712288657787507392009-10-19T19:20:00.000-07:002009-12-07T08:58:20.974-08:00

I had a battle with the enemy Sunday morning. I found myself feeling alone as I prepared to teach a lesson on God's unfailing love.My prior week included a few days of isolation sprinkled with a few attempts to reach out but nothing authentic; I was hiding. The gift I'd receive to truly and intimately receive the Lord suddenly felt too close and I began to turn it off. Before I knew it, Sunday

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-91026010893974064112009-10-06T08:09:00.000-07:002009-12-07T08:58:44.878-08:00

It has been almost a year since I've blogged the evidence of God's grace in my fumbling; its not that it hasn't continued but the rate in which God has called me close leaves little room for pause/writing. I am a growing soul in His ripe soil!Anything that blocks our hearts from freedom to respond to Him breaks His heart; it doesn't set well with Him. All the Lord desires is our response. He

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-30595405303327541152008-11-24T18:09:00.000-08:002009-12-07T08:59:31.790-08:00

Surrender looks nothing like I suspected. Offering my life as a sacrifice to Christ has had little to do with sacrifice and more to do with freedom than I would ever have imagined or suspected.As I have fought to define myself in Christ, as His child, I have found it a relief to lay down my old life's practices; worry, doubt, anxiety, striving and fear. Oh don't get me wrong I pick those up

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-66251063165881126122008-10-20T13:38:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:00:05.192-08:00

I have an intimate relationship with a God that seemed abstract for the first 21 years of our relationship. He is without fail, the most stable person I have ever given my heart to. Our new relationship has been birthed in authenticity which has created a level of honesty in me (with him) that God has honored. It may not be pretty but it is real.In the transforming of my mind I am being renewed.

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-64834575231590526442008-09-16T10:55:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:00:51.664-08:00

Have you ever truly allowed yourself to love and be loved?Have you ever found yourself at a place in a relationship where you truly felt accepted? A relationship in which you were painfully honest about your struggles, wounds, past, failures and insecurities?In your efforts to be authentic you may have had to prepare yourself to be rejected only to find out the lies that rattled around in your

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-74620886281063249352008-09-14T16:00:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:01:43.828-08:00

"I admit I once lived by rumors of you; now I have it all firsthand—from my own eyes and ears!" I took this verse from The Message and though I did not suffer the same way Job did I found myself expressing my pain in the same way Job did.The beauty of it, the way my tender hearted God works is I agreed to invite Him into the struggles of this life and He blessed me by revealing Himself to me. He

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-2362690891020922162008-08-22T11:22:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:02:06.595-08:00

I am basking in this God that has been chasing after my heart this week. Last night I did some yard work and various (normal) weekend chores and it just felt good to be me. To emotionally recognize and embrace who I am (in Christ), that I am NEW (not just the old Amy trying harder).I don’t know what it looks like. I don’t know if it’s a life long struggle or eventually achieved through His given

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-78388163439859013302008-08-21T11:59:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:05:30.120-08:00

I had the most amazing experience praying last Tuesday night. As I spoke to God, I imagined Him on His throne and I had my own little moment of worshiping (and recognizing) God for ALL He is. I quickly realized the only way I am able to approach the throne of this perfect, loving creator of the Heaven’s and earth is through the sacrifice of His son, Jesus. I saw Jesus standing next to the throne

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-59514536071570326052008-07-30T09:35:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:06:07.018-08:00

Lies are powerful. I have seen it in my own life and those [willing to share] around me.Sunday overwhelmed my emotions. God overwhelmed my emotions. I am not sure I stopped crying from the first song until it was over. At one point God's presence was so tremendous I struggled to maintain the little composure I had. I am still absorbing Sunday's message. I am basking in the way the Holy Spirit

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-50585298021695524882008-07-07T14:05:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:06:25.046-08:00

About 3 years ago I heard a speaker offer his opinion of God's love for us. He mentioned that God pursues us everyday, interrupting our thoughts, in hopes of gaining our attention. He said I am God's desire, I am the object of God's affection and I can bring delight to the universe creator. I was drawn in by this possiblity. My spiritual pursuit was to prove that man right; my soul needed to be

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-25164246767200935792008-06-05T09:09:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:06:37.373-08:00

I drag my heart to the feet of the universe maker hoping he'll spare me some of the pain it feels as I watch my friend grieve the loss of her mother. I know it is only Him that can carry her through this pain and loss. I know nothing can calm or ease the sorrow that has swallowed her but I still search for the 'right' words to say and I analyze those I've already vocalized. I know only time will

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-67283101839209347682008-05-13T19:10:00.000-07:002009-12-07T09:07:03.835-08:00

I am fearfully and wonderfully made. And the God of the Heavens is the one who fashioned me together. He knows my name and He knows every single thing there is to know about me. He's made me a promise: for those that trust in him he will literally hold is in HIS hand and carry me all the days of my life.I dont see what God is doing.I dont understand what the plan isbut I tell you one thingI am

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-63651791788462031792008-05-09T14:11:00.000-07:002010-11-24T11:31:40.801-08:00

I struggle with the idea that God accepts me for who and where I am at this moment. My fear of disappointing Him has been hushed with a peace only He could provide. He offers me rest. I find myself comfortable with the silence as He draws me near.I am able to turn my head off and listen to Him; neither of us say much and the silence is comforting. How can I stay in this moment for eternity?I have

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-80423304116449698942008-05-08T15:11:00.000-07:002008-05-08T18:53:21.239-07:00

A continuatual conversation of my inability to see, accept and trust God as a protector verified a list of fears and desires that I don’t entrust or express to God; ironically He knows them all. A reality that leaves me feeling uncomfortable exposed.Isn’t the expression of one’s desires presented with the hope and trust that God will embrace and value those desires; even fulfill them? What are

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-29894687380257313992008-05-07T08:23:00.000-07:002008-05-07T20:51:14.344-07:00

I am haled by how humbleYet overwhelmed by Your majesty !

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-33059692276428044262008-05-06T11:47:00.000-07:002010-11-24T11:30:38.445-08:00

The voice of God is never condemning (Rom. 8:1), never harsh or accusing. His conviction brings a desire for repentance; Satan’s accusation kills our hearts (2 Cor. 7:10).This is a reminder that God’s way of pulling me toward Him is never harsh or shame filled. I don’t get this “God’s love” thing. My biggest struggle is allowing God to define Himself to me. I put Him on the same level of those

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-71431088938712167052008-05-05T17:44:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:32:47.218-07:00

The following was sent to me from a dear Christian friend. In her own journey her heart opens to a perfect Heavenly Father through the words of a daily message she receives. The below was a small part of the daily message she sent me a couple weeks ago it still ministers to me. God still uses it to remind me of the Father He is and the desire He has to prove His gentleness to me. ________ Any

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-64162793123530343692008-04-20T20:48:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:30:17.790-07:00

I review the significance of my journey; searching for purpose, validation, understanding and acceptance. Hope stands with great intimidation before me and I clutch it mightily only to let go of it during times terror. Healing comes after the waves of my ferocious reality. God leaves the healing of my soul complete as He searches the open areas of my heart in effort to wash clean the stains I

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-552525849867961312008-04-18T13:51:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:26:59.079-07:00

Today I am only used trash. It is as if it was what I was put on this world to be. This is the person I can connect to - I know her well. I am her. I am obsessed with the stories of others. I hope to connect with a group moving forward, I hope to take the piercing power away from the word - I except to gain the knowledge of how to stop it the next time as I trust there will be a next time. I

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-90090479037389148762008-04-10T15:17:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:25:10.229-07:00

I come on my kneesTo lay down before youBringing all that I amLonging only to know youSeeking your faceAnd not only your handI find you embracing meJust as I amTo my audience of oneYou are Father, and you are Son As your spirit flows free, Let it find within me A heart that beats to praise you. And now just to know you more Has become my great reward To see your kingdom come And your will be done

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-3979850824042371192008-04-10T11:28:00.000-07:002011-09-21T16:24:44.285-07:00

The direction of my spiritual ambivalence is being resolved. God in his faithful way shows me again my healing is complete through Him. My stuff keeps bubbling up and He and I deal with it; I am not as gentle with myself as He is but I trust that will come as healing continues.No ways, I had an epiphany. Well, maybe not so much an epiphany as a genuine moment of acceptance. A new level of

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-71733291001519351742008-03-26T10:38:00.000-07:002008-03-26T10:40:02.781-07:00

Do I believe that God is a loving Father who is committed to my deepest well-being, that He has the right to use everything that is in me for whatever purposes He deems best and that surrendering my will and my life entirely to Him will bring me the deepest joy and fulfillment I can know this side of heaven?I want to believe this but I cant say I trust it and live it - at least not today.

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-42512568589127957792008-03-19T10:08:00.000-07:002010-11-24T11:35:05.587-08:00

What is it in my being that hides the fight and desire to be loved and accepted by God? I watch the Holy Spirit pursue me, pursue those I lead and pursue those I follow. His faithful chase is not hindered by my hatred, ambivalence, lack of faith or refusal to trust Him."Prayer of any kind and about any subject delights God's heart. The Lord desires for us to want Him, adore Him, thank Him, need

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-26180084587732040532008-03-11T10:55:00.000-07:002008-03-11T11:13:00.247-07:00

I am overwhelmed daily by the way my Heavenly Father loves me and proves Himself gentle. He never takes the likely route, He does not follow the pattern I think he'd choice, He does not act like my earthly father, He explodes through all my expectation of love. In His desire for me to know He is safe He humbles Himself before me. I dont even know how to explain that. I find Him loving me

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-43743478971479984292008-03-09T12:13:00.001-07:002008-03-25T17:14:55.423-07:00

I have been a christian for 25 years. I remember listening to Sandi Patty sing in front of thousands of teenagers and feeling that I wanted the God she had. I have since pushed and pulled God into my life. The prodigal son has little on me. I suspect my rebellious time could certainly scare the meek and wow the strong. The amazing thing - when i surrendered to God's love he gave celebration. I

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-7660961745723174054.post-42475574683598510802008-03-09T12:08:00.000-07:002008-03-25T17:16:50.979-07:00

Can I possible have words to describe what I feel in the presence of Christ?In Paul’s letter to the Ephesians he says “I pray that the eyes of your heart may be enlightened in order that you may know the HOPE to which He has called you, the riches of His glorious inheritance in His people, and HIS INCOMPARABLY GREAT POWER FOR US WHO BELIEVE. THAT POWER IS THE SAME AS THE MIGHTY STRENGTH HE

God's_ArThttp://www.blogger.com/profile/11432388847655931182noreply@blogger.com0